This afternoon my elbows hurt more than they did before I went paddling yesterday, but less than they did after paddling last weekend.
Category: Pain
Damn damn damn FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!
This morning my elbows are hurting. And they’re not responding to ibuprohen either. This feels like the start of the two years of elbow pain that I got after trying for a week to paddle a canoe for exercise. I guess my plans to try a different kayak some evening this week had better go on-hold. Perhaps forever.
Dammit, why can’t I catch a break? All I want out of life is for something fun I can do that will give me some exercise so I don’t die of a heart attack when I’m 45. IS THAT TOO FUCKING MUCH TO ASK FOR, GOD?
Heavy Stuff, Don’t Read
I can’t decide which I hate worse – the atrocities done at Abu Ghraib prison, or the apologists who think that torture, including rape, can be excused.
Even the erstwhile “Lean Left” gets it awfully, awfully wrong, linking rape and threats of rape with homophobia and sexuality. Rape isn’t sex. It’s merely the most degrading and damaging thing you can do to another person. Worse, far worse than murder, or maiming or physical torture or psychological torture.
What is going to appear below the cut line is pretty heavy, you probably don’t want to read it.
Pain
I suffer from chronic pain. I have been since 1975 or so. Yup, 28 years of chronic pain out of 42 years of life. And much of the rest of it was no picnic either. I’ve tried just about every possible treatment or cure in that time. In actual fact, the doctors are baffled by what’s causing it.
The best article I ever read about it is here but unfortunately it will cost you $3 to read it.
One of the big problems I have is that every time I try a new avenue of treatment, I tell myself over and over again not to get my hopes up. But I do, and then when it doesn’t help I get extremely depressed. As well as conventional treatments, I also get my hopes up from reading about experimental treatments, even though I know that the god damned insurance companies will never pay for any of those.
Here’s another highly experimental treatment that will probably never see the light of day. But I’m going to get my hopes up about it anyway.
Dammit
My pain level is creeping up again. It interferred with my sleeping for much of the night last night. Damn I hate this.