Let’s get realistic here for a moment.

The fact of the matter is that my shoulder is not getting better. My pain level is actually worse than it was before my first surgery, and has not been getting any better for two years. Basically every time I do my physiotherapy exercises, which I’m supposed to do every other day, I’m in pain for 3 or 4 days afterwards so they don’t get done as often as they should.

So barring some miracle happening in the next couple of months, I’m facing either not kayaking, or kayaking in pain. Judging by the way it’s gone in the past when I’ve tried to continue a sport with pain, if I’m really lucky I’ll get maybe one year to recover my fitness, and another year to race, and then the pain will be too great to continue – if I’m unlucky I’ll wimp out of the pain in March, sell all my boats and go back to being a limpet. So I guess the realistic thing to do is to prepare myself to train and race in pain, and hope for a miracle. And the best training for training in pain is to start doing my physiotherapy exercises in spite of the pain that they cause me. Who knows, maybe they’ll actually start doing me some good?