‘Round The Mountain 2010

The day dawned cool, damp and fairly breezy. Not optimal, but better than last year’s legendary strong winds and waves, which thankfully I missed. Much of the discussion around breakfast and after we got to the start area was around what to wear – you don’t want to get chilled in the wind on the lakes, but you also don’t want to get too hot on the sheltered bits. Well, that and scoping out the competition. As well as the four of us from Baycreek (Doug, Mike, Frank and I), there was Lars, the guy who sold a couple of us our Brasca paddles, in a v-12, two guys in Nelo Vipers, Mike Littlejohn in his shorter cedarstrip, and we somehow missed seeing George Belarose, Mike F’s rival and nemesis from Tupper Lake last year although we saw him at the finish. Other than the v-12, I figured I had it made in unlimited class until Kent Olmholt-Jensen told me that he’d entered his Viper in unlimited class. If the other Viper was in unlimited as well, I was out of contention. But that’s ok, I figured that once I’d started paddling the Thunderbolt, I had said goodbye to wooden plaques and ribbons.

One aside about Kent O-J: He lives in Chelsea Quebec, not too far from where I used to live, and for some reason I keep wanting to call him Karl. I wonder if I met a Karl O-J through orienteering or cross country skiing when I lived there. (I’ve looked it up – Jarl O-J was a member of the Canadian Olympic cross country ski team at the 1972 Olympics in Sapporo. I wonder if he’s a relative?)

We lined up at the start, with Frank, Mike and I between two C-2s. I’m not sure where Doug ended up. The two C-2s kept squeezing in, and eventually about 15 seconds before the start the one on my left went ahead of me and further right until he ended up to my right between Mike and I.


(If you look carefully, you can see George Belarose paddling around watching the race leave – I guess he didn’t hear the pre-race meeting where they announced that Touring kayak would leave in the second wave rather than the third. I bet he felt lonely being the only kayak in the third wave.)

At the start siren, it was the usual chaotic mess as everyone was searching for the line they wanted or a wake to ride. I had my usual slow start, but to quote bicycle commentator Paul Sherwin, once my ‘big diesel engine’ winds up, I do ok. I was coming up behind Mike, who was just on the left wake of a C-2 sterned by a guy with a Mohawk with a pony tail in the back (in reference to the way a mullet is sometimes referred to in Canada as ‘hockey hair’, I thought that hairstyle should be called ‘lacrosse hair’), when the C-2 suddenly veered sharply to the left, cutting Mike off badly. I decided to swing right to get out of the mess of canoe wakes, but as we left the relative shelter of Ampersand Bay the waves got really bad. They were definitely the worst I’ve handled in the Thunderbolt. I kept telling myself that if this wasn’t a race I would have wimped out. I was now near Doug, and we passed one of the Vipers, this one paddled by a guy in a florescent green high visibility jacket. He was evidently enjoying the waves as much as I was. Doug was heading off towards the wind shadow of an island which looked like a great idea to me so I went with him. He told me I was doing a great job, but he couldn’t see my heart rate monitor – fear and excitement had pushed my heart rate up into the mid to high 170s, which is higher than I’d ever seen it.

Once we got into the wind shadow, I could start paddling for distance instead of survival. I was now ahead of all the kayaks except for the v-12 and the two vipers (the guy with the green jacket passed us almost as soon as we got into the wind shadow). I think Doug was right behind me and Mike wasn’t far behind, although I wasn’t going to pause to look back. We were passing some of the recreation boats that had started in the wave ahead of us, and I tried to say something encouraging as I passed them. There was a buoy at the turn into the river, and I was catching this rec kayaker who was all arms and no torso, and I was about to give some advice on that when he yelled ‘Right of way’ at me. I said ‘seriously dude, you’re going to challenge me for the buoy?’ I went inside the buoy, and then he called ‘sorry’.

The river was narrow and winding, and even the lakes had serpentine courses marked out in buoys to avoid the rocks and shallows. I saw a c-2 sneak through a narrow bit between the shore and an island, but Kent O-J went around. I saw the guy in the green jacket go through the ‘sneak’, but suddenly jam his paddle in a braking maneuver, so I decided to go around. Doug and Mike went through the sneak and I had to paddle like hell to get back on terms with them. Doug has a very small rudder and Mike has a kick-up rudder, so they could risk it more than me. As I pulled back ahead of Doug, he suggested I try to catch the C-2 that was a few lengths ahead, but I tried like hell and I couldn’t get them. Ironically, it was the same boat that had crowded me at the start.

Not long after that, we went under the bridge where our wonderful support crew (wives) were going to meet us to cheer us on. We could see a guy standing on the bridge taking pictures and a guy under the bridge with a dog, but we could hear women cheering. It wasn’t until we got under the bridge that we saw them on a fishing access dock. It lifted my spirits to see them there.

About a mile after that was the carry, a few hundred meter portage, up and down a steep ridge. The C-2 hit just ahead of me, but they just each grabbed an end and ran. I started to get out and got a terrible leg cramp. Doug got out and just danced up the hill as I slowly trudged after. Although he did manage to hit his boat on a tree, which was amusing. By the time he got down to the dock and away, and I got to the dock, he was a couple of hundred metres ahead. Mike arrived at the dock right behind me, but rather than use the other side of the dock he waited for me to clear my side. He assumed I was going to be faster than I was, so I kind of partially responsible for his delay. He said he’ll try to catch me so we can work together to catch Doug, so I pulled away from the dock and then paused to adjust my seat and drink hose and have a drink. I started paddling and I felt quite a bit slower than before.

Mike eventually caught me, but we were both spent, and neither of us wanted to up the pace. We could see Doug up ahead but he wasn’t getting any closer or further away. He was looking back every now and then. I wondered if he had slowed down for us and was wondering what was taking us and why weren’t we catching up, but he tells me afterwards that he was going hard too and was worrying about us catching up.

There were a couple more places where you had to decide to take the sneak or go around an island, and I was so tired that I risked it every time. I bumped my rudder a few times and jammed my paddle once, but I think most of them were net gains.

The last bit into Lake Flower was into a strong head wind, which was not appreciated since we were heading almost 180 degrees differently than when we’d been leaving Ampersand Bay, also into a head wind. I sort of thought that since we’d had a head wind on the way out, it wouldn’t be too much to expect a tail wind on the way back, but that’s racing, I guess.

Mike and I were still side by side, but he was a ways off to the right and I thought I was going more direct, so we weren’t supporting each other. So I decided this time I wasn’t going to get out sprinted at the end like at Long Lake, so I dug deep and put on some extra speed and managed to beat him by a second or two.

The aftermath:

  • It turned out that while Kent O-J had registered his Nelo Viper in Unlimited, the guy in the green jacket had registered his in Touring, so I ended up third in Unlimited
  • Doug won Touring in the under 50 category.
  • Mike came second in Touring in the over 50 category.
  • Frank was only 7 minutes behind Mike and I, and only 3 minutes slower than George Belarose. That’s pretty incredible, considering he’s probably 20 years older than any of us.
  • No word yet on how many NYMCRA points each of us got.
  • I think we surprised a few people by upping our game this year.

Getting ready…

I’m trying to recover from the damage to my elbows and shoulders from the hard workout I did last Tuesday with the other paddle. On Thursday, I did a very easy paddle – the team were doing intervals, but I just went slowly and recovered. I did a few short bits of faster paddling, but when I did my elbows were very sore.

Because of that, I took a couple of days off. Then on Monday, I went erging after work. I figured that I could adjust the resistance and make sure I didn’t hurt my elbows any more. I did 1000 m warm up with very low resistance, 2000 m fast with moderate resistance, 2000 m fast with heavy resistance, then 1000 m warm down. Didn’t hurt much at all, which made me hopeful, but I videoed and my technique looked ok, but not great.

Today, I went out on the boat. Since this weekend’s race has a portage, one thing I was practicing was coming in hard, jumping out the boat, carrying it, jumping back in, and paddling off hard. Good practice for doing the dock, but the water was too cold to practice beach launching. It also makes for some strange looking video as I pick up the boat with the camera attached and sling it on my shoulder. I’ll spend the rest of the week doing some easy paddling and fixing up some things on my boat. Because of the set backs of the last couple of weeks I haven’t exactly prepared for this race the way I wanted to, but I have a lot more base than I did for my first race last year.

Another try at setting up the new server

  • Discovered that one of my hard disks was flakey and returned it. That’s probably why all my previous attempts to set this up failed.
  • Removed the daughter card RAID controller. The built-in RAID controller still sees the disks, but reports them at a JBOD (Just a Box Of Disks).
  • Started a new Debian installation.
  • Set up the both whole disks as the software RAID1 (instead of just a partition on each disk like I did last time).
  • Make the whole RAID (md0) into a physical volume (xen-space) for the LVM.
  • Created a 4Gb root partition and a 1Gb swap partition as logical volumes on the physical volume.
  • Did a base install. Noted that because I used software RAID on the whole thing, it uses LILO instead of Grub. Oh well, you can’t have everything.
  • Rebooted and the BIOS only saw one of the two disks.
  • Fiddled with the disk sled, rebooted, and this time it saw both.
  • Evidently the first boot without the second disk caused the raid to degrade, so re-added the disk mdadm /dev/md0 --add /dev/sdb1 and now it appears to be rebuilding.

Day 2:

  • Installed smartmontools, and enabled in /etc/defaults/smartmontools. Express slight concern that /dev/sda has an exit status of 64 because of some error in the log, probably due to the late unpleasantness. Will have to figure out how to clear that.
  • Installed munin-node and munin-plugin-extras, and copied the configuration from my backup from the last time
  • Installed openssh-server (unselect xauth which gets added automatically because it drags in a ton of X11 libraries). Copied /etc/ssh/sshd_config and /root/.ssh directories from backup.

Day 3:

  • Installed xen-utils. Holy shit that dragged in a lot of dependencies, and it said it had to “reinstall” 200+ packages for some damn reason. But then it gave an error, and when it came back it didn’t have to reinstall them after all. Very odd.
  • Didn’t see any xen in /etc/lilo.conf, so installed linux-image-2.6-xen-amd64. (Had originally thought that installing xen-utils would do that, I thought it did last time.)
  • Lilo complains that /vmlinuz is too big. According to the docs, lilo and xen don’t play together well, and grub has trouble with /dev/md0 software raid. I think I may have to go back to the drawing board, either re-installing the raid card, or going back to the primary boot partition and putting the software raid on the rest of the disk. Or maybe I can figure out how to get grub working. Once again I’m reminded of “Three Dead Trolls In a Baggie” singing “yeah, but I’ve got a girl friend and things to get done”.

Day 4:

  • Reinstalled the Adaptec RAID card, and set up a hardware RAID-1
  • Partitioned the “drive” with three partitions, one 4G ext3 for /, one 1G swap, and the rest as a physical volume for a lvm.
  • Installed on /, and when it went to reboot it got to “shutting down md0” and then hung. Will have to check that again. But at least it installed Grub instead of LILO.
  • After it booted, tried the “reboot” command and it worked! Yay!
  • Installed smartmontools, but discovered (once again) that it doesn’t work with the raid controller, so uninstalled it. I need to find if there is some other way to monitor the raid controller. I think I tried the dpt_i20 thing before and it didn’t work.

Day 5:

  • Installed sshd, copied the configuration from the backup to only allow public key logins. (Bite it, password guessers)
  • Installed munin-node
  • Installed linux-image-2.6-xen-amd64 and xen-hypervisor-3.2-1-amd64
  • Rebooted and the damn thing spewed tons of errors and hung. Tried to reboot with the old kernel (that worked before) and I got the same errors. I guess it’s time to give up on that hardware RAID again.

Day 6

  • Ran the disk “verify” tool in the raid card, and it didn’t find any errors.
  • Anything I tried to boot the system (the original kernel that worked before, single user mode) still failed in aacraid.
  • Ripped out the raid card again, and installed with /, /boot, /var and swap as primary partitions, and the rest of the space on both drives as a software RAID-1 used as a physical volume for LVM.
  • Install openssh-server (and unselect xauth). Copy /etc/ssh/sshd_config and /root/.ssh from backup.
  • Install smartmontools and enable it in /etc/default/smartmontoolsctl.
  • Install munin-node.
  • Rebooted to make sure everything starts correctly.
  • Installed linux-image-2.6-xen-amd64 and xen-hypervisor-3.2-1-amd64
  • Reboot again.
  • Ok, it booted, but “xm list” isn’t up.
  • Manually start xend and “xm list” is working.
  • Rebooted, and this time “xm list” is working.
  • Started to create the lvm logical volumes for the domUs

Day 7:

  • Discovered that when I backed up the last nearly successful domU, I forgot to back up the boot partition, so I’m on my own for the grub configuration.
  • Untarred my backups of the “xen2” and “xen3” domUs. Got a bunch of kernel messages about kjournald being blocked for more than X number of seconds while that was going on – I assume that’s because I was running up load averages in 7 and 8 range in the dom0, which is probably not a normal thing. I hope that just because things weren’t written to the journal immediately that doesn’t mean they were written wrong, only that I might have been in danger if things had died in the middle.
  • Installed rsync so I can restore my backup of the “xen1” domU.
  • Installed vim and removed vim-tiny
  • Restored backup with rsync --delete -aSurvx --numeric-ids /mnt/usb0/xen1/Sun/ /mnt/xen1/
  • Copy the amd64 kernel modules to the domU’s /lib/modules. cp -rp /lib/modules/2.6.26-2-xen-amd64 /mnt/xen1/lib/modules Must remember to exclude /lib/modules when I do any final rsyncing from the live domUs.
  • DAMMIT! It appears that I made /var too small again. Once it saves /var/lib/xen/save in it, the file system is full. Need to move things around again.
  • Booted into rescue mode, and moved things around. Everything seems to work now.
  • Try to rsync some newer backups.

Further updates as things progress.

The first cut is the deepest

That’s not how I expected or hoped for my first kayak race of the season to go.

Dan and Jim told me about this little race in Canandaigua this weekend. It wasn’t on the NYMCRA calendar and it was very loosely organized. The web site barely mentioned the flat water part of the race, and I was getting contradictory information on where it was supposed to start. But heck, it was only 10k and I’d been itching to see how all the work I’d done this spring was preparing me.

On race day, Dan and Paul D decided not to race for various reasons. Dan still went with me, but he was going to do a downriver paddle on the part of the river below the slalom course where the flat water course ended. So basically that left Jim, me, and Julia as the class of the race. There were a couple of C2s and a C1 that looked like they knew what they were doing, but I knew we were going to be faster than canoes. So my goal was to stay with Jim as long as I could, and not blow up and keep ahead of Julia.

The start was pretty dicey – about 20 metres after the start there was a two tunnel bridge, and a couple of idiots in a raft were blocking one of the two tunnels, so we had to sprint for it. Julia, being much lighter than me, actually got there ahead of me, but afterwards I buried myself to try to pass her and catch Jim. Also there was a submerged log very early on that my rudder hit for fortunately it didn’t twist it like logs sometimes do.

Things went according to plan. For the bit where I’d worked hard to catch Jim and for about a kilometer afterwards, my heart rate was up around 171, which is the highest I’ve ever seen it. But after I caught his wake and he slowed down a bit, I recovered to the mid 150s with occasional trips up to the mid 160s when obstacles in the river made me lose his wake and I’d have to fight my way back to it. Julia and everybody else were out of sight behind us and I was able to concentrate on keeping on Jim’s wake and going hard but not too hard, averaging just a bit faster than 5 minutes per kilometer. And that took us to about the 7 kilometer mark.

At about the 7 km mark the water got rougher. Not actually white water, but lots of standing waves and twists and turns and narrow parts of the river. I lost Jim’s wake because I was spending too much time bracing instead of paddling, while his boat that was made for those types of conditions just powered on through.

At about the 7.5 or 8 km mark, there was a narrow bit where my rudder hit a submerged log and I dumped. Fortunately there was a flat part of the bank there and I was able to very quickly get out, get the water out of the boat, and get paddling again. But the water was really cold and I was shivering by the time I got in.

And not 10 metres later I got a sweeper branch in the gut, and I dumped again. This time I was using a gigantic log, about 3 times the length of my boat, to try to get out when it suddenly came lose and started heading downstream. So I had to let it go by and then get onto shore. The shore wasn’t quite as conducive to getting back in, and I’d spent a bit longer in the water, so I was pretty cold. And Julia came by as I was finally sorted out and getting back in again.

This time I resolved not to rush it, but I started paddling and realized my rudder was way off straight. It wasn’t easy to tell, because my feet had gone completely numb and I wasn’t sure if I was even pushing the tiller bar. I had to crash into shore again, get out with my feet in the cold water, and straighten the rudder. As I was doing so, the first of the C2s, a couple of women that Jim and I had met paddling on Red Creek a week or so ago, came by.

I set off again, and I’m not sure how much further I got. This time another submerged log got me, but after the log was very deep water. This time the current was so strong it ripped off my aqua shoes and took my camelback. I had to swim hard to make the shore, and when I got there the bank was so steep and so overgrown I couldn’t get my boat out to get the water out. I ever tried to break out the rear bulkhead to make it easier to dump the water, but to no avail. After a while, while the other C2 and the C1 came by, I realized I was going to have to go back into the water to dump out the boat. I wasn’t relishing that. I actually sat down on the bank for a while to warm up. When I stopped shivering, I went in and dumped most of the water out of the boat. During that time a guy came by in a squirt boat, so I realized that not only had I lost, but there was no way I was going to even finish in the top 3 kayaks. But then I had the problem of how to get back into the boat. I pushed and pulled the boat to get it into a position where I could stand up to my waist in water, and then sort of put one leg in, brace with the paddle and get the other leg in. It worked, after a fashion, but two guys in a fat, wide fishing kayak who were yelling at each other came by while I was doing so. At least I was able to pass them.

The finish didn’t come fast enough to me, but when the water wasn’t too wavy I managed to put on a bit of speed. At the finish, Dan and Jim and Julia took charge of my boat and paddle, and one of the volunteers gave me a t-shirt so I had something dry to change into. As I mentioned I didn’t have any foot protection at this point, so I kind of limped back to my car, and Jim and Julia brought me a hot dog and a bottle of water while I warmed up.

Jim and Dan went off on another down-river paddle, and I was supposed to pick them up in half an hour or so. So I was sitting there, taking pictures of all my scratches for my Facebook page when I suddenly realized that while all I could see where superficial scratches, there was an actual “puddle” (or a conglomeration of drops, if you want to be less melodramatic, and I don’t) of blood sitting there on the sill of the car door where I’d had my feet. I look at my left foot, no problems, look at my right and just about pass out from the sight of this huge flap of flesh there. I hobbled over to the first aid ambulance, and they say “you need stitches and a tetanus shot”. Before I could say “but my car is unlocked, my wallet is in it, and somebody has to pick up Dan and Jim”, they had me in the gurney and on my way to the hospital. So now I’m trying to figure out how to contact Julia to lock up my car, secure my kayak, and go pick up Jim and Dan, and also let Vicki know what’s happening. So I’m texting Vicki like mad, but I don’t have Julia’s cell phone number. I texted Stephen, since he works with her and probably knows her number, but he’s out of town and he never got back to me. I asked Vicki to post something on Julia’s husband’s facebook wall, because that’s the only way I know to get in touch with them.

As I was being admitted into the hospital, Dan phones me up to ask where the hell I was. I explained the situation, and he and Jim said they’d take care of things for me. And sure enough, while I was getting stitched up Jim and Julia come into my room and Julia starts taking pictures. Jim suggested that Julia send one of the more gruesome pictures to Vicki. But not only had they come to visit me, they’d also brought my car and my kayak and picked up all my stuff.

Obviously I’m home now. I’ve got 5 stitches in my foot, and I’m cautioned not to wear shoes very much for the next week or so. I’m sore and tired, and the numbness is starting to wear off on the cut. And I’ve got to figure out how to get Julia to send me copies of those pictures. But I did have 7/10ths of a great first race.

…but the greatest of these is love.

Our church is having a series of discussions called “Reconciling in Christ”. Basically the higher ups said “we’re going to leave it up to each congregation whether to accept gay people in long term committed relationships into the church, whether to celebrate their marriages/commitment ceremonies, and whether to allow them to be called to the pulpit”. Our church seems to be ok with the first and maybe the second, the the third part is what this is all about – we’re having bible study to discuss the meaning of various bible passages and the larger context of them which is so conveniently ignored by certain ignoramuses holding up signs on street corners or speaking at political gatherings.

Note that we specifically spell out “long term committed relationships” – we don’t want bath house cruisers or airport washroom lurkers or singles bar one night stand artists of either gender or orientation. That doesn’t mean that you have to be in a relationship right now, it means that when you do get into a relationship, you’re doing so with the hope or intention that if you’re compatible, it will last more than one night.

A lot of this discussion seems to bog down on people who can’t actually put their finger on what is wrong with a gay person finding love, but they feel in their guts that there is something wrong with it. Somebody in today’s session said “I welcome any gay person or gay couple into our church, but I don’t want them standing in the pulpit”. I wanted to ask them what they expected that person to do if they were in the pulpit? Make constant references to how great gay sex is? Hit on their sons and daughters? Show up in an outrageous Pride Day costume? Because I don’t see heterosexual people in the pulpit doing any of those things, and I don’t think anybody would tolerate it if they did. (What was it Dan Savage said? That Halloween has become like the hetero equivalent of Pride Day? Yeah, we wouldn’t tolerate our hetero pastors showing up dressed as the naughty school girl or the slutty nurse either.) On the other hand, maybe they’ll just be up there and be speaking of how great it is to have a partner they love? Would that be awful?

But the problem is that I don’t the great and overwhelming love of Christ that other members of the Church profess. To me, he was a possibly-divine person who preached an abiding message of peace and love. What I have a great and overwhelming love of is love. I wish everybody could spend every waking hour thinking how fortunate they are to love their partner the way I love mine, and the way I believe she loves me. I wish they could know that happiness that says that even when we’re apart, even when we’re doing our own things, even when we fall short of what we should be doing, even when we fight, we know that person is there and loves us back as much as we love them. And that is the greatest gift, whether it came from God or from evolution. And I’m not going to say “your love is wrong” because of the way your genitalia is arranged. If you love somebody, and they love you back, then you are well and truly blessed.